Masochist me

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This story is not intended as a substitute for the medical advice of physicians. The reader should regularly consult a physician in matters relating to his/her health and particularly with respect to any symptoms that may require diagnosis or medical attention.
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<b><span style="font-size:20px; color:red;">Warning: This will involve abuse of the main character. If misuse and abuse is not something you are interested in, then it is recommended to not read this story.</span></b><br>This story, unlike other CYOS stories, will not be about controlling the character, as much as controlling what happens to her, normally through control of the other characters. The character will be the object, not the subject, although the story will be written from her perspective.
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This story is 100% true, and all the people in this story is 100% alive. Well, at least in my head, where I imagine being the masochist. It gets me wet. Maybe I really am? Haven't tried to too much yet...
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No animals were hurt in the making of this story. A few guys might have been. Spanking me sufficiently make take time. A few complained of cramps, sore hands, and premature ejaculation. What, I have been a bad girl, and you must punish me sufficiently, and it may hurt you more than it hurts me.
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== The interview ==
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'''Interviewer:''' Tell me a little bit about how it started.
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'''Me:''' Well, it all started when I was young. Very young. I think I was like 3. I would get in trouble, and, remember, this was from a time when it was still acceptable, my parents would spank me.
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'''Interviewer:''' I don't understand. Even I was spanked when I was young.
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'''Me:''' Yes, but how did you respond?
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'''Interviewer:''' Well, I cried, of course. Every child cries when they are spanked.
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<i>I shook my head.</i>
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'''Me:''' I didn't.
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'''Interviewer:''' Really?
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He looked at me strangely.
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'''Interviewer:''' What did you do?
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<i>I laughed.</i>
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'''Me:''' Well, I cried. I guess it is still natural. But, I enjoyed it. The first memory I have is getting spanked. Then, spanking myself. Sadly, it didn't really hurt. Not like it did when my dad spanked me.
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'''Interviewer:''' That is...strange.
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'''Me:''' Well, you wouldn't be here, interviewing me, if I was <i>normal</i>, now would you?
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<i>He shook his head no.</i>
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'''Interviewer:''' So, you, reacted...differently to being spanked.
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'''Me:''' Not just to being spanked. It was, well, everything.
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'''Interviewer:''' Like?
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'''Me:''' For example, when I got thumped, I remember repeatedly thumping myself. When my mom smacked my mouth, I remember smacking my own mouth after, over and over again.
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'''Interviewer:''' So, why do you think you did that? What caused you to want to do that?
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'''Me:''' Caused it? I don't think anything '''caused''' it. It just seemed I was...different. I was wired to enjoy it, or something.
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'''Interviewer:''' That can't be right. Humans avoid pain, it is part of who we are.
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'''Me:''' I don't. Oh, I avoid things that would actually cause damage, or scar, or things like that. I don't disfigure myself, or self harm or anything. I just...enjoy pain and humiliation.
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<!-- Not sure I like this part. Hiding for now, I can always add it in again later '''Interviewer:''' All those tattoos, the piercings. Some might consider them scarring and disfiguring.
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'''Me:''' Really? You find me ugly?
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<i>He shook his head no.</i>
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'''Me:''' Maybe you see them and see some disfigured woman, some hideous beast.
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<i>He again shook his head no.</i>
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'''Me:''' Okay, time to be completely honest. You are asking me to trust you, so I want to be sure that I can really trust you.
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<i>He gave me a guarded look.</i>
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'''Interviewer:''' What do you mean.
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'''Me:''' Do you find me attractive?
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<i>He paused, thinking about what he wanted to say.</i>
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'''Interviewer:''' I find you attractive.
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<i>I shook my head.</i>
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'''Me:''' Not good enough. Tell me, in your own words, how attractive I am to you. With my piercings, my tattoos, my "disfigurements".
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'''Interviewer:''' Sorry, that is now what I meant.
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'''Me:''' Oh, then what did you mean? Tell me.
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'''Interviewer:''' Okay.
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<i>He took a deep breath.</i>
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'''Interviewer:''' Honestly?
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<i>I nodded, waiting for him to say what was on his mind.</i>
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'''Interviewer:''' I find you the single most attractive and exotic woman I have ever seen in my life.
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'''Me:''' But I thought you said "some people might find my tattoos and piercings disfiguring".
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<i>He sighs, sitting there, reflecting inwardly.</i>
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'''Interviewer:''' Let me try this again. The tattoos, the piercings.
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<i>He squeezed his eyes shut, then opened them up again.</i>
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'''Interviewer:''' I have seen people with horrible tattoos. I have seen people with body augmentations, excessive piercings, things like that. And, while some who knows what kind of a person you are might see them as something you did to yourself, not because you wanted, but because your need for pain pushed you to get them.
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'''Me:''' What does that have to do with me? I am not trying to be some politician, some business woman. I am just trying to be me.
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'''Interviewer:''' Yes, I guess so. I spoke before I thought.
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'''Me:''' So, you find me the most attractive and exotic woman you have ever seen. Go on.
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'''Interviewer:''' Well, you obviously have good taste. They don't take away from you. They...enhance...and they also separate you, make you...somehow more. Like a piece of art, a lovely woman, with jewels and paintings. -->
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'''Me:''' Anyways, we should get back to what we were discussing. What made me the person sitting before you.
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'''Interviewer:''' Yes, please.
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'''Me:''' Anyways, so, I found myself sort of enjoying the pain. I guess I was a bit of a wild child. Oh, I loved my parents. But, they didn't seem to understand. They kept giving me what I wanted when I didn't do what they wanted me to. You know, same thoughts as most people have.
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'''Interviewer:''' So, to you, they rewarded you, with a spanking, a smack, something like that, for the wrong behavior.
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<i>I nodded.</i>
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'''Me:''' Exactly. It was like you getting a candy. My parents were at their wits end. Eventually, as I got older, I started understanding how much I was hurting them, upsetting them. I guess I sort of turned inward. I stopped acting up to get rewarded, and instead started just...rewarding myself.
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'''Interviewer:''' How so?
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'''Me:''' Well, when I went to bed, I would take my belt, spank myself, over and over and over, until my butt was bright red, hot, felt aflame. I would go to sleep, enjoying the heat, the pain, raising from my butt.
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'''Interviewer:''' Oh.
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'''Me:''' My shrink calls it <b>sexual masochism disorder</b> or <b>algolagnia</b>. They classify it as class IV, or exclusive masochism. I cannot form typical romantic relationships and cannot achieve orgasm without pain or humiliation. But, I also do not go beyond a certain point, where I will be scarred or disfigured. Or even seriously injured. The only time I have had a broken bone was due to skiing, not due to my masochism.
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'''Interviewer:''' Wait, you mean, when you were young, and doing this, it was for sexual gratification?
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'''Me:''' No, obviously not. That did not come until I was older.
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'''Interviewer:''' So, tell me about it.
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Current revision as of 21:43, 1 April 2017

Warning: This will involve abuse of the main character. If misuse and abuse is not something you are interested in, then it is recommended to not read this story.
This story, unlike other CYOS stories, will not be about controlling the character, as much as controlling what happens to her, normally through control of the other characters. The character will be the object, not the subject, although the story will be written from her perspective.


Interviewer: Tell me a little bit about how it started.

Me: Well, it all started when I was young. Very young. I think I was like 3. I would get in trouble, and, remember, this was from a time when it was still acceptable, my parents would spank me.

Interviewer: I don't understand. Even I was spanked when I was young.

Me: Yes, but how did you respond?

Interviewer: Well, I cried, of course. Every child cries when they are spanked.

I shook my head.

Me: I didn't.

Interviewer: Really?

He looked at me strangely.

Interviewer: What did you do?

I laughed.

Me: Well, I cried. I guess it is still natural. But, I enjoyed it. The first memory I have is getting spanked. Then, spanking myself. Sadly, it didn't really hurt. Not like it did when my dad spanked me.

Interviewer: That is...strange.

Me: Well, you wouldn't be here, interviewing me, if I was normal, now would you?

He shook his head no.

Interviewer: So, you, reacted...differently to being spanked.

Me: Not just to being spanked. It was, well, everything.

Interviewer: Like?

Me: For example, when I got thumped, I remember repeatedly thumping myself. When my mom smacked my mouth, I remember smacking my own mouth after, over and over again.

Interviewer: So, why do you think you did that? What caused you to want to do that?

Me: Caused it? I don't think anything caused it. It just seemed I was...different. I was wired to enjoy it, or something.

Interviewer: That can't be right. Humans avoid pain, it is part of who we are.

Me: I don't. Oh, I avoid things that would actually cause damage, or scar, or things like that. I don't disfigure myself, or self harm or anything. I just...enjoy pain and humiliation.


Me: Anyways, we should get back to what we were discussing. What made me the person sitting before you.

Interviewer: Yes, please.

Me: Anyways, so, I found myself sort of enjoying the pain. I guess I was a bit of a wild child. Oh, I loved my parents. But, they didn't seem to understand. They kept giving me what I wanted when I didn't do what they wanted me to. You know, same thoughts as most people have.

Interviewer: So, to you, they rewarded you, with a spanking, a smack, something like that, for the wrong behavior.

I nodded.

Me: Exactly. It was like you getting a candy. My parents were at their wits end. Eventually, as I got older, I started understanding how much I was hurting them, upsetting them. I guess I sort of turned inward. I stopped acting up to get rewarded, and instead started just...rewarding myself.

Interviewer: How so?

Me: Well, when I went to bed, I would take my belt, spank myself, over and over and over, until my butt was bright red, hot, felt aflame. I would go to sleep, enjoying the heat, the pain, raising from my butt.

Interviewer: Oh.

Me: My shrink calls it sexual masochism disorder or algolagnia. They classify it as class IV, or exclusive masochism. I cannot form typical romantic relationships and cannot achieve orgasm without pain or humiliation. But, I also do not go beyond a certain point, where I will be scarred or disfigured. Or even seriously injured. The only time I have had a broken bone was due to skiing, not due to my masochism.

Interviewer: Wait, you mean, when you were young, and doing this, it was for sexual gratification?

Me: No, obviously not. That did not come until I was older.

Interviewer: So, tell me about it.

My first pain encounter
My first humiliation encounter
My first link with sexuality
No, I think we understand how you are...different. Lets move on to now.


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